Father’s Day. This is always a bittersweet day for me. I haven’t had a “father” of my own to celebrate since my dad passed away in 2001. The only grandfather I knew, my Pepaw, passed away in 2005. I would try to let the day just pass by and try not to think too hard about it.
Then I married Josh and his dad was someone I could wholeheartedly celebrate on Father’s Day. Bobby Littleton is a godly man who puts his family first and works harder than almost anyone I know. He is honest and kind. (And I am so fortunate to be married to his son!)
Then Josh and I tried to have a baby for almost 2 years. At that point Mother’s Day and Father’s Day filled me with a sort of guilt and shame. I felt like I had failed Josh and kept us from becoming parents because month after month passed with no baby.
But thankfully in May 2018 #ReeseHelen entered the picture, and she changed everything. Becoming parents was hands down the best and hardest thing we had ever experienced up to that point—the crying, the sleepless nights, the moments of frustration coupled with a love so deep and fierce you think you might explode. To say parenthood is a roller coaster is an understatement.
That first Father’s Day weekend I can remember Josh and I being so exhausted. Reese was 5 weeks old. We had just traded in our first travel trailer for a fifth wheel #Jayco camper. We were so excited but unsure of how this tiny baby and her inexperienced parents would handle camping together. Our parents had offered to keep Reese so we could go on a date. We half-joked the whole way to Publix (yes, half of the date was a grocery store run), that we wanted to pull into a parking lot and take a nap. (I think I did end up falling asleep for the majority of the ride. 😬)
As we walked up the steps into church Josh was holding Reese’s hand. I could picture Josh and I walking down those very steps as we left our wedding reception 7 years ago. At the time we did not think we would ever have children. Parenthood wasn’t on the radar. Seeing the 2 people I love most in the world walk up those steps into the church that has meant so much to us was truly a #whateverislovely moment. He. Is. Good. Always.